Oh beautiful Sunday~

So after almost 2 months of holidays i am finally going back to college tomorrow. The feeling of starting afresh in college this year is a little different as it would be in every starting of a new term. Well one thing is for sure tho, i've got 1 rusty old brain sitting in my skull and not ready to accept any knowledge from the college renowned finance lecturer, Wong Heng San a.k.a. BKT a.k.a Bah Kut Teh. HAHAHHAHAAA i'm sorry, i just can't help it~~

Anyhoo~~ i've had a good day today...savouring each second of my holiday..ooh, and its my beloved daddy's birthday too, Happy Birthday daddy! I love u! Also went to church this morning, it was wonderful...its been ages~~ It was also quite embarassing as my shoe tapak came off in church, i had to wear my selipar jepun. T_T sooo not chique okay? i was all dressed up n yet i had selipar jepun on me~~ duidogo....

So, to wrap up my holiday season here's a toast to a good beginning for my final degree year! Cheers!!!!!!

I am OKAY

Hey people, since the last time i blogged, my emotions have stabilized with each passing day =) Thank God for that...Speaking about God, i've come to realization that i haven't gone to church for more than a year now. My godmother must be gawking if she reads this post! Hahaa~~~ But have no fear! I have made the decision to put in every effort i have to always make it to Church every week. So yeah....Church it is =D

So besides feeling like the whole world was against me a couple of days ago, i've also taken the liberty to just take in and digest the surroundings and feelings of being here. Home~ Will be leaving for KL soon and after spending approximately 2 months here, its almost heartbreaking to leave it all behind until i don't know, another year? So right now i'm just picking as many fights with my mother as usual just to tease her, i'm manja-manja-ing more with daddy, i'm playing with my dogs and puppy, and i walk around the house as much as possible~ heehee~~ Nothing beats being at home....

Before i go back to KL there are certain things i need to get done...ehemm...with this i mean to......beautify myself! hahahhaaa, i need to get my hair done, i need my teeth to be whitened if not nanti ada orang yang will tegur n say ugly laaa, then i wanna get manicure n pedicure....well those 2 i can urus myself~~ initially i wanted to get a full body treatment yang inclusive of body scrub, steam, & massage...but no transport...-_-"....daddy uses the car to go to the site everyday....sedey!!!Haih~~ BUT i shudn't complain~~ Ok suda ba me this, no needla massage2~ nanti2 only la that..heehee

Ok lo, i'll update again when i reach KL, till then ciao cincau!!

I am so upset

There is no exact word to describe how i'm feeling right now, but there are heaps of words that i can totally use to tell all of u how i feel. I am TIRED. I am DRAINED. I am DISAPPOINTED. I am SPEECHLESS. I am MISERABLE. I am HELPLESS. and I am totally FRUSTRATED.

Well. There are many reasons that lead me to being this way. I am going to be honest and if any of u whom i will be mentioning in this post happens to read it, i apologize in advance cuz i really need a place to vent out my miserable-ness.

First of. DAMN U CARPENTERS who are doing the cabinets n bar in my house!!! You've made a hell of a non-professional job n my daddy's money is going to waste in investing on u guys to make it!!! Ughh!!!!! Shame on u!! Shame on u carpenters!!

Next is the case of my brother whom i love so much. I just wish u would stop that relationship with that friend of yours who u made clear to me n the whole family is just a friend but we truly know that she is indeed a 'friend with ONLY ONE fringe benefit' and u know wat i'm talkin about! There are SO MUCH diseases in the world today n i would hate it if anything were to happen to u...Please laaaa pleaseeeee~~~~~~~~ I'm totally crying while typing now. I'm just so frustrated.

And now, my beloved boyfriend. I just wish that u would appreciate me n take me seriously more. Day after day i must admit i x feel what i used to in the early years with u. I know i have changed, i , myself admit that but so have u..ur change in talking to me, the way u treat me....well, u can call me too sensitive but, the changes in the way u treat me will also make my treating u change as well. I am sorry to have hurt u during the times of our relationship and i can assure u that i want our relationship to progress further, i'm not gonna waste my time on a relationship to just leave it ending with a break up, but I CAN'T DO IT ALONE....I need ur help too...so please help me on this too

Now i'm just gonna lie down, i'm too tired