I am so upset

There is no exact word to describe how i'm feeling right now, but there are heaps of words that i can totally use to tell all of u how i feel. I am TIRED. I am DRAINED. I am DISAPPOINTED. I am SPEECHLESS. I am MISERABLE. I am HELPLESS. and I am totally FRUSTRATED.

Well. There are many reasons that lead me to being this way. I am going to be honest and if any of u whom i will be mentioning in this post happens to read it, i apologize in advance cuz i really need a place to vent out my miserable-ness.

First of. DAMN U CARPENTERS who are doing the cabinets n bar in my house!!! You've made a hell of a non-professional job n my daddy's money is going to waste in investing on u guys to make it!!! Ughh!!!!! Shame on u!! Shame on u carpenters!!

Next is the case of my brother whom i love so much. I just wish u would stop that relationship with that friend of yours who u made clear to me n the whole family is just a friend but we truly know that she is indeed a 'friend with ONLY ONE fringe benefit' and u know wat i'm talkin about! There are SO MUCH diseases in the world today n i would hate it if anything were to happen to u...Please laaaa pleaseeeee~~~~~~~~ I'm totally crying while typing now. I'm just so frustrated.

And now, my beloved boyfriend. I just wish that u would appreciate me n take me seriously more. Day after day i must admit i x feel what i used to in the early years with u. I know i have changed, i , myself admit that but so have u..ur change in talking to me, the way u treat me....well, u can call me too sensitive but, the changes in the way u treat me will also make my treating u change as well. I am sorry to have hurt u during the times of our relationship and i can assure u that i want our relationship to progress further, i'm not gonna waste my time on a relationship to just leave it ending with a break up, but I CAN'T DO IT ALONE....I need ur help too...so please help me on this too

Now i'm just gonna lie down, i'm too tired